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Saturday, January 29, 2011

So Is This Goodbye?

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"I still don't have the reason, and you don't have the time

And it really makes me wonder if I ever gave a thought about you.."

..

"And you told me how you're feeling

But I don't believe it's true ~~anymore~~.."

Makes Me Wonder
Maroon5
It Won't Be Soon Before Long

Gotta catch them and ask them to sing me happy birthday this April ;)

Labels: Entertainment Stuffs, Events, Love(?), Maroon5, Vany Naura, wishes

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Choices To Choose, Never Been As Hard As This.

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Thispost will be written in Bahasa Indonesia. This caused by my lack English right now. Well anyway..

I'm on dilemma.

Gue. Lagi. Dilema.

Jadi gini ceritanya.

Gue ngerti yang namanya hidup itu harus pake pilihan. Pilihan itu kadang-kadang cuma 'Ya' atau 'Tidak'. Nah, buat gue, pilihan itu ada banyak. Bisa aja awalnya cuma 'mau' atau 'nggak'. Tapi lama-lama dari satu pilihan 'ya' atau 'tidak' itu bisa berkembang lagi ke pilihan-pilihan lainnya. Itulah otak gue yang sok bisa mikir banyak-banyak. Tiba-tiba langsung aja dateng banyak pilihan ke gue. Ujung-ujungnya gue jadi pusing sendiri.

Sekarang ke permasalahannya.

Pernah waktu itu bokap gue lagi berbaik hati ngebolehin gue backpacking ke Eropa pas lulus SMA. Beh, seneng dong? Gue bisa liburan dulu, bisa cari pengalaman dulu baru masuk kuliah belajar lagi. Lagipula, hal yang lo pelajarin waktu travelling bakal lebih banyak, lebih mudah dimengerti dan lebih berarti daripada lo duduk belajar di kelas. Otomatis gue iya-in lah.

Tapi terus bokap bilang `kalo gitu cari uang dari sekarang, cari link buat 'numpang', kalo mau cari temen berangkat bareng atau berangkat aja sendiri.` Duh?

Gue rasa ini nggak mungkin.

Sekolah gue adalah model sekolah yang seneng 'nyimpen' anak muridnya lama-lama di sekolah. Belom termasuk tugas seabrek, ulangan, dan kewajiban bimbel untuk anak dengan otak pas-pasan macem gue. Waktu gue selama seminggu habis untuk sekolah. Begitupun duit jajan gue yang--ahem, ngga tralu banyak. Dan di Indonesia--tepatnya di daerah rumah gue, dimana ada part-time job untuk anak SMA?

Kalo nyari link sih ya gampang, udah banyak kok forum-forum backpacker. Tinggal betulin cara komunikasi, ngomong baik-baik, insya Allah bisa diterima. Tapi duitnya ituloooh. Masa iya gue yang pergi sendiri bokap gue yang ngebayarin segala macem? Ga lucu kan?

Selain itu, gue punya firasat kalo masuk kuliah pas jaman gue dan seterusnya bakal lebih sulit dari sekarang. Kalo misalnya gue jalan-jalan dulu, dan tetep pengen masuk PTN, agaknya itu sulit. Kecuali ya gue pengen kuliah di luar dimana itu juga ngga gampang. Yah, pokoknya ada more and less nya deh.

Nah, gimana gue ga dilema?

Ujungnya sih, setelah mikir-mikir, gue udah bikin 3 pilihan pasti yang harus cepet gue putusin. Walaupun yah, sampe sekarang gue masih bingung. Dua pilihan itu adalah:

1. Backpacking abis lulus dengan pinjam duit papa tersayang. Stay disana cari kuliah atau pulang ke Indonesia belajar lagi super keras buat masuk PTN. (Begini ceritanya, gue harus bawa buku juga sambil backpacking. Gimana nyari kuliah kalo udah lupa pelajaran sekolah?)

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2. Kuliah dulu di Indonesia, sambil kuliah sambil kerja sambilan. Waktu libur semester pergi backpacking tapi ngga langsung satu benua. (Berarti gue harus pinter bagi waktu antara kuliah, belajar dan kerja. Dan gue bakal jarang pulang ke rumah pas lagi libur. Berarti gue bakal jarang ketemu kamar--tepatnya kasur--asli gue.)

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3. Gue kuliah di luar, pas libur ngga balik ke Indonesia tapi jalan-jalan ke negara sekitarnya (eh wait, emang gue mau kuliah dimana?)

Udah ada 3 pilihan, tapi masih banyak dilemanya. Menurut lo, enakan gimana ya? :|

Oh anyway, ada lomba blog dari Canada Education Services International. Ikutan ga ya? Ada yang ikut kah?

~~Ps. Satu dilema lagi. Gue maksa nonton TDF atau ngga ya?~~

Labels: Bahasa Indonesia, Blogger, FYI, The Downtown Fiction, Vany Naura

Monday, January 3, 2011

How Old Am I, Really?

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It's first day of school and we had to attend a flag ceremony before going to class. Right when I arrived at my row, Filzah gave me that meeting invitation from my Rohis leader, Faishal. There's nothing special about the invitation, though. But that pink marker he used and that <3 sign beside his name, I wonder what he was thinking while making the invitation. He was such a sweetheart (in Indonesian I said him as an 'unyu' boy lol), haha, I mean it. Well, by that 'unyu' invitation, I'll ask my Tatra leader so I can join both Saman practice and Rohis meeting tomorrow.

Thank you for that cutie invitation, Ishal :)

Anyway,

Something has been stuck on my head through this day. Well, I know I shouldn't keep that on mind but it's just coming and coming. To make it worse, my friends were talking about the same thing all the 2nd break time. I couldn't stop thinking about that as I made a little survey at twitter, and seemed like everyone was agreed with my friends. Damn, why does the world hate me?

What? You curious about that? Read the spoiler then ;)

SAYA yang baru kamu kenal beberapa minggu lalu emang bocah. Suara saya cempreng, badan saya kecil, muka saya bocah, kelakuan saya kayak anak kecil. Pantas, walaupun kita belum pernah ketemu, kamu bilang saya kayak anak SMP. Kamu bilang saya mukanya childish. Kamu bilang saya kayak masih kelas 9..

SAYA yang suaranya emang melengking ini tiba-tiba tadi diprotes sama temen-temen main saya. Katanya suara saya cempreng banget, suara saya kayak anak SD, kayak anak TK malah. Katanya saya nggak kayak anak 16 tahun, katanya saya kayak anak SMP. Sama kayak yang kamu bilang.

Kata temen-temen saya, suara saya harus direndahin lagi. Tapi saya ngga bisa, saya ngga tau caranya gimana. Suara saya emang begini dari dulu masih unyil..

AKHIRNYA saya ngambek kan.. saya kabur ke Icha. Icha bilang saya biasa aja, ya kayak anak seumuran saya. Tapi ternyata dia ngga tau kalo saya udah mau 17 taun.. dia kira saya sama kayak dia yang taun ini baru mau 16. Aduh, miris deh jadi Vany. Yang sabar ya Van.

Pulang sekolah, saya kepikiran gitu.. saya buka twitter terus saya update begini:

Setelah nunggu sambil msn-an dan tumblr-an, akhirnya ada respon tuh. Kamu mau tau hasilnya? Ngenes deh sumpah. Cuma lima orang yang jawab. Tapi cuma satu dari mereka yang bilang kalo tampang saya sesuai umur. Sisanya? Pada bilang gini:

"Emang lo kelas berapa? Gue kira kelas 9 wkwkwk"

"Ngga ngira taun ini Vany mau dapet KTP..."

"Aku kira kamu baru mau 16, Van.."

"Mukanya nggak kayak anak mau 17 taun, kayak 15-an"

OKE ya, oke banget. Saya sih tabah aja. Mungkin malah harus alhamdulillah kali ya, ~~berarti saya awet muda~~ (amin Ya Allah, amiin).

Tapi, apakah segitu bocahnya saya? Apakah segitu keliatannya kalo saya kayak anak kecil? Apa saya emang ngga bersikap kayak 16 taun?

SEBETULNYA, bukan itu masalah saya. Saya tabah, beneran deh, saya tabah banget orang-orang bilang apa tentang saya. Saya iya-iya aja deh, toh berarti mereka anggep saya ada.

Tapi, lagi, bukan itu masalahnya.

MASALAHNYA adalah... saya kepikiran kamu. Saya inget kamu. Saya mikir kenapa orang-orang sama pikirannya kayak kamu. Saya jadi pengen ngobrol lagi sama kamu. Saya jadi galau. Saya..... jadi ngerasa gaul. Duh?

I gotta go now, I'm kind of hungry and have to prepare things for tomorrow. Thanks for the time, peeps! Cya!

Labels: Friends, Love(?), School Stuffs, Vany Naura

Sunday, January 2, 2011

#2011wishes #2011resolutions

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Happy New Year!!!

This is my first post in 2011, my first post after that ICT task last semester, my first post talking as Vany Naura and--damn--my last post before school starts tomorrow.
Yes. School starts tomorrow. Sucks? I know.

Anyway, I was going to post some 2010 memories I had with everyone, but, hey, it's 2011 already! I'm now going to start a new life, I better one, I hope. And with the expectation of better life, I did make some resolutions and wishes. Let's see the wishes and resolutions and see if I can make them this year :)

#2011wishes:

Naik kelas >> Lol I dunno what's this in english. But seeing my score last semester, I didn't say I won't pass this grade. To be clearer, I want to pass this grade with a good score. At least no 75 or C scores at my report. Amen.
A better relationship >> ~~I want a boyfriend.~~ LOL NO. The relationship here is about my family, my friends, my besties, with other fans, with the musicians, well yeah okay it's also about boyfriend or what's that you call. I just don't want myself to ruin everything ever again. I have to control my mood, my emotions, my feelings and everything so I won't get into any problem.
Meet TDF, ARTTM and HeyMonday >> Alright. I did tell you that I'm not in the mood anymore to meet them. But what if I could get a chance to meet them? I'm really really looking forward to get that chance, only if God loves me that much..
iTouch >> Enough said, I want the new generation of iTouch. My life is complete after then.
A router >> This is something my dad always told he would do, but he never done that until I'm writing this post. He said he wanna set a rooter at our house but he even hasn't bought the rooter yet. How much I love you, Daddy -__-

#2011resolutions:

Pray in early time, read Quran everyday, wear jilbab nicely.
Read more books, less internet connection
Saving money for rainy days (which is for iTouch, concert tix, merchandises and albums, and for backpacking stuffs)
Do my best for street team stuffs
Be tidier, be cleaner, be more diligent.

What do you think? Do we have same wishes or resolutions? :)

Labels: A Rocket To The Moon, Entertainment Stuffs, Events, Friends, Hey Monday, resolutions, Review, The Downtown Fiction, Vany Naura, wishes

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